The Disidentification of Mrs Proctor

  I went for a run this morning. I say run, but it was definitely more of a 'rulk' (I've definitely periodically lost my running mojo), but actually it turned out to be quie a poignant endeavour, regardless.  As I 'rulked' around that reservoir (which has consequently become one of my favourite places ever), it struck me how many of it's seasonal forms I've had the privilege to witness this year; that stark winter with the icy veins on the leaves etched magnificently. The green shoots, blossom and birdsong of spring. The incredible, luxurious summer (and what a summer it was)! And now the gloriously, golden Autumn. That landscape seems to have delivered exactly what my body and mind has needed it to be, when I've needed it. But it's also been the natural clock that has marked the passing of time so eloquently, This Thursday marks nine months since that day... Nine months! The same amount of time it takes to grow a human being. Seeing how the world ha...

"You can't go back and change the beginning, but you can start where you are and change the ending" - C. S. Lewis  It's been six weeks now since I started my new life - six weeks! It seems to have gone in a flash and yet, the shit-storm that has been tumultuous in my brain this year seems to be a far and distant memory now, and all the wreckage and debris swept away and repaired into something finally resembling familiarity. I honestly can't believe how much I feel like I'm out the other side. Those bad thoughts and tears have gone! And I have adjusted to my new life with the click of my fingers.  The new job is still a refreshing change. A wonderful mix of new experiences and old knowledge, and I'm still loving it! As the days and weeks have progressed, I feel like my face is becoming better known and I'm starting to establish myself solidly in my role. It's not always been easy, but generally I feel in control, competent and happy!  Since my last...